My lord I havent written for a VERY long time.. Just dont have time.. I spend all day looking at a computer and talking on the telephone.. The last thing I feel like doing is coming home and getting back on the computer.. Mark and I are doing great.. I miss him so much.. We talk every night and things are getting pretty serious.. I sent his valentine present Monday of last week and he still hasnt gotten it. I havent talked to him today yet so hopefully he got it today.. I got his present today tho.. He sent it to his mom for her to give to me.. I almost cried.. One because I miss him soooo much and two because I loved Everything... He had this adorable card and he wrote a lil message in it... so sweet... and he got this cute white bear... soo soft and its holding a white rose and has a red ribbon coming off the rose that says Your Special.. all that was great... but the best was a lil white box at the bottom of the bag... I opened it up to find this beautiful gold necklace.. 2 hearts and diamond... gorgeous.. Thats when I just about cried.. His mom was sitting across from me and she goes... "Go ahead... I wont tell him..." lol His mom is really a fun person.. I just dont know. I think about him constantly.. Crazy about him.. He told me the other day that he sees us together for a long time.. a while... a long while.. thats exactly what he said..I got him this cute red and black gorilla holding a heart that says our first valentine.. and this really soft red heart shaped pillow and a pair of blue lounge/pajama pants... and a really sweet card... saying something about how he holds a special place in my heart... I cant wait until im able to be with him again.. I knew what I was getting into when I first met him.. the whole army thing.. But i dont want to let him go.. hes mine.. I want it to stay that way... He also said the other night that how long we're together depends on how long I want us to be together.. I told him that I have NO plans of letting him go.. I cant imagine not being with him.. I dont want to.. He said good because he was not going to make it easy to get rid of him.. Im falling for him... and I dont want anyone to catch me.. Im happy.. I like this feeling..

I'm feeling...: happy.. oh so happy..
I'm listening to...: Usher - My Boo

The Rough and Rowdy Brawl was awesome again this year.. Wes won the Mid-weight Championship.. I was happy for him... Ash and I never got our private show from the red corner hottie.. Jerry... or maybe Aaron.. we never did find out what his name was.. lol.. But I had a lot of fun.. Walking up like 10 flights of stairs both nights in the freezing cold was not fun at all.. It sucked big time... Mark called me last night at about 8:30... I was at the fights but I didnt mind.. I like to hear his voice.. I feel so much better after I talk to him.. So I talked to him for about 45 mins. I paced around the civic center hallways.. I would be standing in one place and all of a sudden it would get really loud so I would walk down a lil farther... Anyways - I'm supposed to hear from him later today..

Training in the phone unit is going really well.. Ben said something about turning me loose on the phones later this week... like around wednesday or thursday.. I think I can handle it.. I cant go to Ben and say well, I dont think I'm ready or tell him I'm nervous.. I just have to get on there and do it.. I have to show him that I'm confident.. or he wont have any confindence in me.. I want him to be confident in me.. He told me friday that everyone at the office told him that I would do good on the phones.. so I'm under a lil bit more pressure now that he told me that..

I miss Mark.. I wear his ring all the time.. the only time I take it off is to sleep and shower.. otherwise it stays on my finger..

I'm feeling...: cold
I'm listening to...: the TV

Marks mom gave me his ring this morning.. I think its a really pretty ring... Yea its a guys ring, but its still pretty.. I cant get over what he said to me last night.. "I want us to be together..."

Work is going well... Training is hard but I'm slowly getting the hang of everything.. It'll just take time to build up confidence to be ready to actually take a real call..

Thats about all thats going on right now.. I just miss Mark...

I'm feeling...: sleepy
I'm listening to...: the 6 o'clock news

I just got off the phone with Mark. I was so happy when he called me. I love hearing from him and just talking with him every night... When he's out on the range and gets in late and cant call me, I hate it.. I usually have a bad day the next day.. He asked me to wear his army ring tonight... I of course told him yes, but I decided to ask him simply why he wanted me to wear it.. It was just a simple question.. I just wanted to know why... and it was so great what he said.. short and sweet.. " I want us to be together..." I love it.. Its not about the ring itself, its about the whole idea of it.. that he wants to be with me and that he really likes me.. because I am absolutely head over heels for him .... everything about him makes me smile.. Im happy... Things are going slow and thats what I want.. Yes hes far away but hes not gonna be gone forever... Its perfect...

I'm feeling...: happy
I'm listening to...: Jay Z/Linkin Park - Numb/Encore